suffering from low bat..
yesterday was my last day working at iora wardrobe. *mixed-feelings* don't know if i should be glad or sad. i did learnt alot of fashion boutique's practices; customer services knowledge, for the past 2 weeks at 4 of their outlets. (why 2 weeks? bcos i was asked to join them as a part-timer after the promotional season at whitesands.)

apart from the above, i came across nice & not-so-nice people amongst the staff. i felt that it is indeed a not-so-good experience working with some "foreign talents ". maybe because i find them not-so-friendly i guess.

i couldn't help but wonder, why is there a huge difference in the way they treat their staff in the different branches. suntec was a.. not-so-happy one for me. whereas, wisma atria was an extremely =] one. anyways, what i gained the most (physically) is.. the ability to stand for long hours.. since i'm trained for these 2 weeks by standing around 11 hours. i think it'd be an advantage for me in the coming weeks, when i'd be working at robinsons as a sales associate. hardworking, eh? *lol*

i've to sacrifice certain things on my schedule bcos of the robinsons job -- yamaha lessons/ aj concert etc. fortunately my teacher is thoughtful enough to give me individual lessons at her house for the coming month. *grateful*
regarding the concert, to all my friends performing.. i'm sorry.. all the best anyways!

& congrats to bowen for clinching a gold medal once again! an impressive display i'd say. my friends & i agreed that the formation is there.. the sound too (which i think is better than any other bands) but neatness in marching may have to be improved to be able to win tk. ganbatte for the grand finals! *to my sis's dm, i was kinda surprised u came across my website & blog. do leave a note on my tag board. =]

i can't wait for tomorrow to begin.. it's time to splurge a little after working for this long. *yays* of cos i know i should save. afterall, i'm spending on useful things. (",) on top of that, i'd be meeting up with diana & siewmay for a movie.

& talking abt school.. my mind's made up.. i'm going to tp. returned the enrollment package already. actually i should thank my neighbour for "delivering" it there cos he's tp's lecturer. such a coincidence. his wife is nyp's lecturer. so coincidentally it's the 2 polytechnics that i've been enrolled in.*gulpz*

anyways, to those who haven't been for a check-up (esp nyp students).. be prepared for a disgusting day.. & be prepared to "hug" the x-ray machine.. gd lucks.. *lol*

guess what?
i'm selected! *yays* starting work on monday. at least the time i spent travelling from one end of singapore to the other end didn't go to waste. i really felt like throwing up. such a long journey though our country is small. can't imagine how i'd survive if i go to tp.

anyways, i was kind of astonished by my performance. as in, how i answered one of her questions. my brains were working pretty fast. *phew* actually i felt kinda worried after stepping out of the boutique. the real thing is on monday. i better do a good job in delivering my "speech" to psycho customers to buy more. or my efforts during the interview would come to waste. & i won't forgive myself. though this job is only for a week, i really hope that the 7 days there would be a happy & rewarding one.

oh & i went to robinsons for interview too. since they need staff at the expo & centrepoint & raffles city mall, & it's one week after the job at the boutique. the human resource staff there are quite friendly & approachable. well except for the security guard. haha. hopefully i'd be shortlisted. i really look forward to working in a totally new environment. but i'm feeling quite disappointed cos i won't be able to attend ajc's concert. i've to work till 11pm.

american idol really gave me a shock of my life. how can jasmine trias be in the bottom 3?! she sang "don't let the sun goes down on me" quite well. fortunately she's safe. john stevens also gave me a heart attack yesterday night. the song simply doesn't suit him. thank god he's still in the competition. anyways, "the OC" is quite nice too.

__sihui, out__

what's your greatest disappointment in life?
sihui answers: not being able to achieve your aims, your goals, your dreams.

at hindsight, i realised that im just a failure. whatever the dreams i had in mind in the beginning seems to be.. completely shattered in the end. it's like preparing a shopping list but coming home empty-handed after spending long hours searching for it outside. or like a field with no harvests after working on it for a year.

somehow the failures i encountered piles up inside from the very beginning. it's like suddenly having found an old diary under your pillow, which u sleep on every night. u know everything has passed. they're over. but sometimes, it's easy to see it all coming back to haunt you.

maybe too long a break from school makes u think too much. apparently, i've too much time alone. haven't found a job. no replies from the owner of cathay & far east. i guess i wasn't selected. i'm going for interviews again, tomorrow. hopefully one of them or both of them accepts me, since both are short-term jobs & the dates allocated doesn't clash. i know i shouldn't worry that they don't hire me since i've already been offered a job at my aunt's childcare. but, i just want to gain experiences in the sales field i guess. & i'm tired of admin stuff. (i know i shouldn't be picky, but can't i choose something which i enjoy & benefits me at the same time?) i hate to sit in a corner from 9-5, which explains why i sleep & wake at irregular hours & why i choose interactive media design (IMD). cos if i work in media industries, i'd have a different project or routine everyday & every year. unlike accounting. well, that's only part of the reason for choosing IMD.

i think i've sort of made up my mind. i think i'm going to temasek poly. i've even thought of opening a design-related shop, doing something different, something no one has ever done in singapore, yet. (besides, i think my chances are rather slim for the appeal to nyp's business management course) but upon thinking of this decision, the thought of not being able to study a degree in media design in singapore really.. makes me sian diao. i don't know. i shall wait & see. i can't believe i'd be receiving my enrollment package from tp soon. why is nyp so inefficient? i heard everyone hasn't got theirs, wheareas other polys are already receiving the replies of the package from their prospective students.

anyways, i must say i MISS everyone!! especially yihuey, zhixuan, nuraini.. don't know how u gurls are doing.. hope to see yall next week.. cos i've planned to celebrate yihuey's bday for her.. wEeEe~ i've even bought her an extremely nice prezzie. recently, i can't help but think of the fun days we spend in MI. hope yall miss me too. *lol*

& i've gotta apologise to 4EB for not being able to join yall for the chalet. not that i wasn't keen, but i already promised my friends to catch passion of the christ with them & i have to go for interviews. moreover, my meals there would be a prob since i'm a veggie. & talking about the movie really makes my blood boil. jessica & i didn't managed to sneak in. her church booked the entire theatre so we were thinking if we could follow behind big groups of people into the theatre. but.. argh.. forget it. only siewmay & diana watched. siewmay's smart enough to borrow ppl's ez-link & paste a neoprint on de picture. haha. but i was quite relieved i don't have to go home red-eyed that night.

alright, written too much. tired too. wish me luck for tmr's interviews.