wad's wrong with me?
whatever is wrong with me isn't right. urgh. duh. how do i know? well, here are the following symptoms:-
- splurge alot. & i mean ALOT.
- moodiness
- less determined
- less ambitious
- less focus'ed'
- loss of appetite
- easily frustrated
- no more blogging for a month?! (crazy! cos i LOVE to blog)
ultimately, wad im trying to say is.. i've become someone i don't know. & it IS horrifying.
everything has changed eversince i entered poly. why? i don't know. yes i previously wrote dat im loving poly life during my 1st wk. & hey it's de 1st wk ma. everything can change for de following weeks. i realised dat i feel demoralised easily. especially during visual literacy classes, where we combine class with some seniors (dey picked our subject as an elective) & i must say some of dem are very impressive. de most stressful thing is when de lecturer comment. i know it's gd to learn from criticisms. but, it was really disheartening when u hear de way she says things. *aye*
& my drawing fundamentals class was (& still is) a nightmare. i know nuts about technical drawings etc. i am struggling. even when i borrow books from de library re: perspective drawings, i still don't understand. & i do ask de lecturer on certain stuff but it was again, disheartening to see de facial expressions he gave. i feel like a total failure. i AM de weakest link bcos im de only one who didn't pass his test.
everything is so wrong.
i thought i should cherish my life more after de close encounter with death last thursday. yes, i might have died. i thought GOD is giving me another chance to find back myself. & i really thank GOD i didn't bid farewell dat instant. after de trauma, i sms'ed' junwen cos we haven talked for a month due to our last quarrel on my sch. sounds stupid i know. anyways, im glad i started to talk to him first (cos usually i don't in such cases) haha.
alwight. i need to go off already. im using de comp in my multimedia class cos im frustrated wif my notebk. *yawn* im so tired. i need my bed (which is an hour away from here) badly.
p.s. thanks to ppl who are concerned about my blog. don worry. i did a spring cleaning to get rid of de spiderwebs already. =]
whatever is wrong with me isn't right. urgh. duh. how do i know? well, here are the following symptoms:-
- splurge alot. & i mean ALOT.
- moodiness
- less determined
- less ambitious
- less focus'ed'
- loss of appetite
- easily frustrated
- no more blogging for a month?! (crazy! cos i LOVE to blog)
ultimately, wad im trying to say is.. i've become someone i don't know. & it IS horrifying.
everything has changed eversince i entered poly. why? i don't know. yes i previously wrote dat im loving poly life during my 1st wk. & hey it's de 1st wk ma. everything can change for de following weeks. i realised dat i feel demoralised easily. especially during visual literacy classes, where we combine class with some seniors (dey picked our subject as an elective) & i must say some of dem are very impressive. de most stressful thing is when de lecturer comment. i know it's gd to learn from criticisms. but, it was really disheartening when u hear de way she says things. *aye*
& my drawing fundamentals class was (& still is) a nightmare. i know nuts about technical drawings etc. i am struggling. even when i borrow books from de library re: perspective drawings, i still don't understand. & i do ask de lecturer on certain stuff but it was again, disheartening to see de facial expressions he gave. i feel like a total failure. i AM de weakest link bcos im de only one who didn't pass his test.
everything is so wrong.
i thought i should cherish my life more after de close encounter with death last thursday. yes, i might have died. i thought GOD is giving me another chance to find back myself. & i really thank GOD i didn't bid farewell dat instant. after de trauma, i sms'ed' junwen cos we haven talked for a month due to our last quarrel on my sch. sounds stupid i know. anyways, im glad i started to talk to him first (cos usually i don't in such cases) haha.
alwight. i need to go off already. im using de comp in my multimedia class cos im frustrated wif my notebk. *yawn* im so tired. i need my bed (which is an hour away from here) badly.
p.s. thanks to ppl who are concerned about my blog. don worry. i did a spring cleaning to get rid of de spiderwebs already. =]
