i cant wait!

to participate in the Red Cross video competition.

eugene cream and i will be joining forces again to become open access! wee~

winners of this competition would have their masterpiece on tv mobile!

cool.

psst. here's us on lime magazine [feb]

have you ever missed some stranger..?

i sound silly.

but that's what im feeling now.

*censored*
[im crazy on sat. so whatever WAS here IS gone now. stop laughing ur head off.]

just now, a gust of wind just blew past me.
it made me wonder..
since the wind knows no boundaries.
it must have been to alot of places.

have it ever swept passed the people whom we know?
the people whom we love?
the people whom we've lost touch with?
most importantly, people whom we miss?

can you imagine..
everytime a wind that sweeps pass a someone you miss,
it comes to you and "embraces" you de same way?

=x i sound crazy, don't i?

bahs.

i just love the wind.

(:

upfront. getting real.

heyas.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

did yall enjoy visiting & stuffing ang pows like crazy? hahas.

apart from this happy occasion. im feeling rather sad. cos.. i realised how disgraceful i am. should have been given two tight slaps on da face. i'm still not responsible enough to handle my own things well. i owe thomas a lot and i mean a lot a lot of drawings. i didn't even bother to attend lessons. my attitude just sucks. big time. my mom was right. i didn't even put in any effort these months in poly. such a failure. i'm beginning to despise myself already.

and i didn't even bother to go for creative thinking lessons. just because i didn't allocate time to do the clock. should be punched right in da face.

im not fit to be in tds. at all. escaping is a cowardice act. im such a coward. dare not attend drawing classes. dare not show up cos i didn't complete my work. i HATE myself to the CORE. just what's wrong with ME?!

WAKE UP, SIHUI.
GET A LIFE!

some photos my dad took during de first day of chinese new year.


my dad's side relatives. amongst them are ppl who pampered me a lot since i was young. (:


hahas. this is my tang jie & her boyfriend. girls who're in luv are jus different.


cousins here are older. my mother's side.


complimented every year for his gd looks. hahas. my biao ge. an eligible bachelor now.

this year's chinese new year lacks something, somehow. maybe it's de absence of certain relatives. but each year, we find ourselves stranded at some spots, donno what to say. used to be very close. drifted apart now. the feeling's weird la.

something to announce..

no. not an engagement or marriage. *shivers* sorry ah. so "cold".

but something that will change my future. i am quitting school. no, don just stop here, read on. & don open ur eyes so wide la. lol.

i still wanna pursue music afterall. hope to teach music in future. at least do something related to music. dont wan to just secure a diploma and getting nowhere - i want. not saying dat imd won gimme gd job prospects. but my passion, my dream, my life cannot leave music an inch. sometimes, i go to my piano or electone and end up using up de time allocated for homework to practise. most of de time while working on music pieces, i find myself hoping that what im studying now is music.

my mind is oways in a whirl. my thoughts drive me crazy at times. rmb just a month or so ago, i wrote here dat i wanted to prove that i can excel in my course & vowed to work hard after de mtv competition? im thinking otherwise now. i can nv stick to certain thinkings for long i guess. but im sure it isnt de case for music.

after contemplating & disussing with cream & shiling, i realised imd isnt wad i exactly wanted as a career in future. though i do enjoy some subjects in sch. ive tot abt pursuing music after a disappointing Os result. in fact, this tot occured to me on many occasions. in de midst of de post-Os holidays, after 1st sem and now. i still want music badly.

something u'd ponder on is why have I chosen my present course initially then? my parents advised me to get a diploma even if i don have interest in most of de courses. i then selected one i preferred and had interest in & was super glad i actually passed de interview cos at least i don hafta study de limited courses within my aggregate range. but, only to find dat im not very happy with wad im doing.

i hope to be able to pass de auditions and enter NAFA/LaSalle this year. inspired by cream, to do wad she really wanted to, bcos of her very true theory "we only life live once".

i hope u do give me support in my decision. cos dat would mean a lot. (:

live your dreams and make it happen. are u living yours?

"u can gimme 365 days playing music but not doing design assignments."