im becoming more and more doubtful.

and less and less capable.

im starting to worry and question now and then.

and im getting more and more tired each day.

. . . . .

the sight of him made me feel less burdened, somehow.

i sort of like.. find solace in his eyes.

all my fan naos disappeared for a while.

. . . . .

im getting weaker physically and mentally.

sometimes i find myself staring in the mirror.

wo zhen de hao lei, u know that?

i actually have no idea what to write. until yesterday..

when buying ice cream for the sake of the melody soft toy.
( super duper cute. yall buy meal or anything must buy for me ok. haha. )

anyways..
i actually forgot how to eat an ice cream..
i rmb myself to be very good at "eating" instead of licking ice cream few years back.. if u guys rmb..
but yesterday was disastrous.. so dui lian. hai.

my life is getting more and more -- *boorrrinGG (*must listen to my version LIVE. )
i sometimes wonder.. if de world ends today, i'll si de hen bu gan yuan.

ok. im not saying im not enjoying my work and all. I AM. but i feel like i shouldnt live the life of an adult at this point in time. i feel i dont even have TIME to:

1. attend my poly chalet
2. eat a yummy meal / drink pao pao cha
3. play sports ( though i think im getting skinn-ier )
4. hang out with friends
5. spend time with my fam
6. call & chat
7. attend workshops
8. go kbox-ing
9. fall in love ( wahaha.. )
10. SHOP ( shopping also must kan cheong cos break time is limited )

and lastly..
B-L-O-G.

maybe..
i shall give this entry a theme :
say,
how to destroy yourself in 60 seconds.
or the fall of sihui.
or newly endangered species.

I can even appear in 'LOST'.

so lost now. ha. life is funny; contradicting.. fill in the blanks.

hai.

"somebody savveee meee.."